Die große schwarze Leere.

It is not always about the message…

Alicia and I met again to practice channeling. Since our first experience, one month has passed. I have shared the experience with a few people, but not many. I tend not to share too many things unless asked. My youngest sister was curious, as she has never heard the term "channeling" before. I am using the definition of channeling quite loosely, and as with many things, I usually understand and explain the experience in my own words. However, there is a world out there that has defined certain things for all of us to understand better, so why not search for the actual definition? Specifically, I was interested to see what the difference between mediumship and channeling is, and I found a quite pleasing definition that matches my experience: “In channeling, a spirit uses the channeler’s body and voice as a vessel to transmit messages. In mediumship, the spirit steps back and transmits the message with voices or images to the medium.” I am honestly happy I did not read these definitions beforehand, as giving my body and voice to “a spirit” to speak through me and “take me over” sounds more than scary…

And this is where I would like to start today – with the rational and logical mind, which is scared beyond imagination to let go of control but needs to in order to channel. It needs to let go completely, and in our first experience, you might remember reading it, what I call my “analytical mind” came rushing straight back in at the first attempt of Moses to speak through me. It was so unfamiliar and scary to have words formed in my mouth that did not make any sense yet, a phrase that started without me knowing what the finish line would be… that my rational mind did not let it happen immediately.

We all have it, live it, and use it – the rational mind. For many of us, we claim the rational mind is the only thing we use in our daily lives. And we are proud of it. I don’t know when it happened, how, and why (but I have an idea – keyword patriarchy)… but sometime in history, a belief system formed that emphasized believing in and living from the rational mind as what we "should" do. We have formed a science based on this newly elevated authority called “the rational mind” and “logical thinking,” and we use these terms for everything true and false. It has brought us to where we are today. I am not saying this development was negative; it was a development. Yet we are on the brink of changing and evolving into something new. And that something new does not need the rational and logical mind anymore. It is an interesting time. Observing rational-thinking fellow humans struggle to balance their intuition and Higher Self stepping in is interesting, and of course, it awakens my energy to guide and support the transition.

And for myself, I am transitioning with the experience of channeling. It is as if this is what my rational mind wants as proof that the other world exists and that I exist in this other world. But little did my rational mind know that once I enter that world, it will not come with me.

Alicia started in her soft and reassuring voice to help me get relaxed and settled in the here and now. I understood the process, but something in me switched direction when Alicia asked me to go to my safe place. For whatever reason, I suddenly wanted to bring the safe place to me rather than “go to my safe place.” You may remember from the first write-up that I was split in two in my first experience—one part went to my safe place, and the other stayed where I physically was. We had to put the dome of protection around the two parts, and that was okay. Alicia assumed I was going to do the same thing, and so did I, but let’s say it was my Higher Self that decided, “No, we are going to try and experience another way.” And now I know—both ways work. So I “brought the safe place to me.” I suddenly felt like I was underwater while sitting on the ground in the room I was in; there was no water, of course, but it felt as if I was breathing underwater. I felt the gentle rocking of the waves, the touch of the perfectly tempered water on my skin… the silence and peace. All the fish and other beings from last time were present. My safe place was the same; just this time, it was with me, and I did not have to go anywhere. Alicia had shuffled a card beforehand, and the ascendant master that joined was Mahavatar Babaji. I didn’t know much about Babaji beforehand. I do have one friend who is a “follower” of Babaji, and I am not a fan of “following” anything. I am really not a fan of any religion, dogma, or any other sort of belief system, so I am always very cautious and also very curious about who these masters really are. I am fully aware that humanity has distorted the teachings over the years. And I am also aware that the pure energy these masters hold is within all of us and maybe ready to be ignited and shine in this world. Mahavatar Babaji entered quite quickly; it was not shocking or too much, it just was, and his energy was extremely soft and joyful. We will find out later that part of this joy is him being really happy to see a certain frequency manifested on Earth, finally. I could see that frequency he was talking about as a yellow-white-greyish kind of fog or cloud that was just above our heads, like a division between Earth and sky. It was something that is almost touching us, and if we lift our heads, we can see it, smell it, and sense it. “It is here,” Babaji repeated a few times. But let me give you the whole conversation:

Alicia: I am going to address Babaji. Good morning to you, Babaji.
Babaji: Good morning to you.
A: Good morning, thank you for joining us today.
B: You are VERY Welcome.
A: Is there a particular reasons that you have particularly come through for Sonia today?
B: This is a lovely place to be. A lovely time to come and meet.
A: Could you expand on that please for us?
B: There is a very nice energy. I love to be with you.
A: Are you talking directly about Sonia?
B: Yes. And this place. This era.
A: On Earth?
B: Yes, you are on Earth. Laughing
A: Do you have more information for us about what is happening to humanity on Earth at this moment?
B: I can’t give you the whole picture. I feel a lot of my energy reflected and aligning. A lot of the energies around you are aligning to what you would see in me. There is like a softness, it is almost like there is a layer between where you are standing and your sky. And that’s the frequency and energy that is there and so lovely. And it makes me happy to see it. And you are standing underneath and it is like it is coming down. A bit like when you have fog, but it is not fog. But it is there and you are in there.
A: Thank you. Your energy feels so expansive, huge and big and cosmic almost. My question to you is, is that how you see your own energy?
B: Oh yes, I think you feel that right. And it wasn’t always easy to connect in with Earth. Because that energy wasn’t present. And now it makes me so happy to feel it incarnated. Hmm that is not the right word… it is like it is there now, it is easier for me to connect it.
A: Because parts of humanity have expanded their own consciousness?
B: Yes, that is how you could put it. There is this frequency, that layer, and now it is there.
A: And what message if you have one, would you give to lightworkers, you might have another word for it, the people that have come to expand our consciousness at this time in the Earth. Do you have a message for them at all about how we navigate our experiences and the difficulties here?
B: First of all, Thank you all. The work has been done and I am delighted to see it. You have done tremendous work. And it is happening. I am not sure you need any more guidance.
A: So just keep going?
B: Just relax into it.
A: Thank you, that is interesting. My take on it, I remember saying something to someone yesterday about how I navigate through these tough energies, it is almost like I am just cut off from the Earth around me – not the Earth but humanity, yet I have a very full life and I fill it with myself and what I am doing and I am not taking an awful lot of notice of what is going on around me.
B: That’s right, that’s exactly right. It is like, I see what you call the lightworkers, some of you, like on a different plane in the Earth. And it is above you guys, where that energy is, that lovely cloud. It is as if you have elevated, that is how I think you would call it. And it really doesn’t matter what else on the Earth is happening.
A: Thank you. I am going to ask you some questions about Sonia. Do you have any direction for Sonia about her life at the moment?
B: To soften. Same as with the others and tap into the energy. And you can only tap in when you soften and keep that joy.
A: Thank you.
B: She knows.
A: What’s it like being “you”.
B: Laughing. Let’s put it that way, I am at peace. And I am dedicated. And it hasn’t always been easy because I didn’t have access to you. I had to wait. And now I am feeling so happy to feel the energy, the frequency on Earth has shifted. And I can come back. It is soon time to “interfere” laughing. It is soon time to play a more active role again. So it is just a very long - in your words - time. It is just to be. It just is. Pause
It is like you are at peace but you always have one eye open. And you are constantly watching – laughing – Sonia would say, like a mother dog, watching her babies do all the rubbish and doing all the things they shouldn’t do and she just watches and waits and lets them do it.
A: How many human incarnations have you had as a soul.
B: Many, many, many. There is one that you guys find particularly interesting, but I had many others.
A: Which one?
B: The one you gave that name to.
A: Babaji?
B: Yes.
M: So you are talking as Babaji, that is just one aspect of you?
B: It is, it is, but it does represent the energy the best.
A: Ok so if Babaji is just one aspect of you, do you have another name that we could use?
B: No, that is the right name.
A: What direction do you see humanity and Earth going in?
B: That is not something I think I can answer.
A: I think it is time for me to just ask Sonia to come back, it has been 10-15 minutes which might be quite a lot for her to hold your energy. So it is time to say thank you to you, for coming through today. It has been beautiful to speak to you. Your energy is just so expansive I can only describe it as cosmic, it has been amazing to feel you here today.
Thank you so much.

During the channeling, I felt calm and peaceful at the beginning, like in a deep deep meditation but after a few minutes, a hot shivering went through my body. I can only explain this as ripples of energy that were moving through me and my physical body found it difficult to hold that energy, hence it was shivering. It happened a few times, also the position I was sitting in became more and more difficult, it was as if I was starting to tense up. Alicia had the perfect timing in calling me back and my body completely released when I stepped back in. It is really interesting to experience what it means to hold a “high frequency energy”. It is not all “clouds and joy and light” it is quite an intense physical experience. For any of us, thinking we are ready to become masters – we are far for it. At least I am. I am not sure it is even possible to incarnate those high frequency energies yet while on Earth. This is just my assumption, but it does feel like our physical bodies are not quite made for it.
I felt energized and full of energy after the channeling, ready to guide Alicia, who has shuffled The Divine Director.

Her experience was different than anything she has ever channeled before and the novice I am, different than anything I have witnessed before as well.
Alicia channeled a big black clear void.
She struggled to let the energy in and I struggled to find the right words. We usually expect something light, something expansive, but not something black. But I can tell you, that black was the most expansive energy you can imagine. It just was black. And empty. And it is withing all of us. It is who we truly are. The experience was complex and so very unusual.